forgot the count

realized that i don't count down any more.

lost the freshness and the joy and the happiness.

will start all over. renew myself..

being a bz bee.

make the best summer out of 39th year.

looking back at last year's photo,

i look so unweathered..

santa ana zoo with boyz

looking at my own photo makes me feel really old.

i feel total ordinary. middle-aged with no hubby, nor kidz.

now i'm marrying my career. that's damn good already tho.

i can start building my life on this now. fitter happier more productive, snowballing the likeness..

ninety nine

i'm going to revolutionize moi.

change will come.

i'll break the boundary and dare not unthinkable.

this is the second chance to live my life to the fullest.

first time, i was more passive but this time i'll be playing some different role.

i'll be confident, creative, passionate and believe in myself.

i'm giving myself 10 days to make things over.

love is the answer. following heart is the strategy.

coolness and style will be my method.

100

i expanded my free day to 100.

it makes sense before the clinical.

i jotted down my clicking experience.

i had handful of each luv and friendship category.

those endless daydreaming and doodling never ends.

i'm going to leap from the past and make the change from today.

i'll break off the pattern and raise my sexiness and professionalism.

my life is all set towards my dream and i just need to step forward on my path.

another chapter of new love and friendship saga will unfold with better happier self...

D73: chat with design

had a feeling of hitting it off with okcupid chatting last night.

i was never into chatting til lately, when i finally opened up for this new venue of communicating.

guess chatting and texting are the new means of getting to know someone for the new generation.

or at least 80s and onward.  are they called y generation?

anyway, i think i like chatting now.

i could chat with up to 3 people.  :)

he was very up front and frank about being sexual.

maybe he can meet my desire and seduction..  ha

D75: home

was exquisite cinematography with compelling anti-global warming theme.

combined with , it should be used as the best educational tool for fighting global warming.   only delivers biased point of view and gore still got the nobel peace award.  so wrong..

i've got 75 linkedin contacts and 73 facebook friends.

i'm waiting for the lucky 77th connections.

nico will be brought on and maybe sam be the 77th??

i'll think it through til 779.  or 799.  :>

sam called and left a message today.  why still???

what could he be possibly wanting from me...???

D78. bark park

bark park lead 2 no spark.
tony barking so loud was no fun at all.
maybe tony is a bit autistic..
the awkward kiss attempt was still memorable.
this was the closest after my last act since last apr. (22nd)

D86: the big O

the orientation turned out to be quite an energizer.

feel much comfortable and confident with the group that i belong to now.

wasn't as intimidating as in the fullerton interview.

i saw myself smoothly fitting into such a diverse group of mix.

was glad to find that i wasn't the oldest of them all.

made friends with soo jung, the korean young lady! (along with ahi, tahn and sasha)

methinks my next 3 years will settle in nicely with long beach nursing.

looking back how nicely everything started pointing to the natural path feels somewhat amazing.

i did follow the cosmic path; surfed the natural waves.

D88

spent nearly 4 hours on social problems DB entries!

am i really improving my writing skills?

contemplating on quitting...  argh!  :)

D89: chat queen

i opened my mind on online chatting, then came in the wave of calls.

i was chatting with 3 boys at once and i was handling it quite well.

that was a fun experience, but i still don't see i get addicted to it.

guess i'm a slow email person and belong to x-generation.

tried making chicken soup for the first time for david,

and it turned out pretty okay.  making soup is not too difficult after all..!

:>

D90

the weekend was quiet with swimming, biking and walking tony.

but i safely landed on virtual socio class and enjoyed reading.

okcupid is becoming steady-- steady flow of mails and chats..

caught up with viv sunday morning..!

now i have 3 mos.