brain damage

we had our last quiz today and i did the worst,

notwithstanding that i tried hard to get the perfect score for last chance.

i am wondering if it's the physiological aging process of my brain,

or unusual coincidental cluster of anomaly.

i feel quite an imbecile.

just like what natalya said this morning.

that was a pleasant coincidence that i ran into her this morning and had a nice conversation.

so things get balanced out today in all.

but how could i have forgotten those abbreviations?!

inconceivable.

bloody cycle

't was disappointing that i didn't perfect the quiz yesterday,

notwithstanding that i tried my best.

with my slightly blurring vision, i feel the out-of-focusing mental acuity.

this is the battle between my aging and my commitment.

my goal is the class mean.

i am going to do better than the average.

i will fight over my physical aging.

my bloody resolution found its new leaf again!

dinner with joanne last nite was magical with some kinks...

l yr anniv. to fb

i joined fb one year ago.

my friends base grew to 108 after a year.

109th will be mayra. :)

learning that nursing is the art and science fits in nicely with me.

it's one step upgrade from chemistry. -- just like chemistry was the one more layer of complexity added on math. if math was one dimension for me, chem was two dimension, then nursing is 3-D.

so i'm covering all of disciplines. math (med math), science (chem), critical thinking (from film) and caring! i have all the backgrounds to be a great nurse. exactement...

turning a new leaf again, and i'll have the goal of valedictorian. ha he ho

it's not that far away. i'll start with doing my best with the best strategy for my second test on N200, the fundamentals. by the time we hit gero & patho, i'll be a comfortable a student. :)

survived the first week!

so it wasn't so bad to spend 12 hours of hospital load for 2 days..!

guess i was more nervous than need to be.

like always, like last week at the sim lab too.

the test was like pretty stirring, but i got 88 % eventually,

so it's a fair ground to start. my goal is to get an A!

my first pt was devoted to my dad.

stroke patient was not an pretty situ.

today's felicitas was a sweet lady, but sadly sick.

learned a lot from my two philippina nurses too.

it was a bit uncomfy to give a ride to margaret to the hospital today,

but i like her a lot. she's cute and talkative! 63 yo grandma full of energy.

melike my flrmates vietnam and mayra. :)

sim lab done!

feeling so disappointed and disoriented.

the sim lab has passed almost seamlessly,

but things are not resolved in my head.

might be combinations from sam's missed im, dad's death and almost failed vital sign, and allen's gay status. ha

the fact that i was so nervous for the test made me feel kinda vulnerable and at the same time not distinguishable. i was always on top of things so far, but now i'm struggling to keep my place in the middle. that's a big change that i'll have to get used to. it's like berkeley days. 3 years..

i'm making a new network down here in oc. i'll start turn things around from tomorrow! :D

2 years since

i remembered that today was the significant day writing down the date this morning at Kaiser orientation. nobody really remembered it.. sadly....

i had a fiasco today that i made the error of wrong shipping address on blood pressure puff.

i was glad that it was not the med error.

feel the urgent need to be more alert.

the hospital orientation went okay.

i like all my floor mates. i'm pretty lucky in that way.

awake, alert and oriented...!

93333 to 93336

the money came in.

was feeling a bit guilty/cruel about putting the period on sam.

but he was unreasonably clingy. why?

does he think he still has any chance?

or is he just looking around now with a new girlfriend?

i'm guessing that it's his pattern.

all i can remember is the resentment and his mistreatment.

his disrespect and presumed superiority..

i think i did the right thing. or mature thing..

i'm going to bury everything here. release everything to the universe..

on the other hand, i love my classmates and school.

getting to know everyone one by one is so fun.

this is my golden age. my 40th age, that is to come!!!!