nearly full moon

will remember that i looked at the moon which was full.

or almost full, one day off in fact..

took tony out for new year's eve treat.

treat to myself was massage with tony and pho.

he was gentle this time and it was sensual.

for some way, i was glad that it did not work out with sam mysteriously.

i was thinking about mike and vietname today...

i'm ready for the new year.

my wish was getting all as for 2010.

am gonna act confident and assertive role, everyday.

4 mos til 40

schock with pathophys is put behind,

for me to evolve beyond the grades,

and be cool to become an excellent nurse.

next year's resolution will be focused on quality of life,

not the quantity, nor the numbers, yey! :)

8 yr anniv

yeah,

8 yrs have passed, since my virgin experience of ...

i grew, mature and

well.. still lonely, i guess.

but at least the relationship with myself

got ever stronger.

i do love myself, my life, my new nursing path...

have my family and companion son tony that i take care of.

so can't complain about life.

no, it can't be any better than this.

this short piece of freedom feels so precious.

since it came after 4 mos of hard work.

i'm still in honeymoon yet... :D

bloody cartharsis

what a bloody timing that my period marked the very end of the semester!

end-of-life sim paper and cpr recerf all came in with the cosmic timing.

it was the first time in my life that i slept 3 hours two days in a row.

i'm glad that i went through all these, without too much bleeding...

outta gulag

those intense 12 days have finally passed.

the result was a happy ending.

did my best and gero ended with lucky b.

it was a tough semester, but i really like what i do now.

became close to more classmates,

and we are growing like a family.

things got resolved with victoria,

and i got to respect her now.

but i still regret that i didn't speak out at the eval.

end-of-life sim lab and seminar on the last day made it all too dramatic ending.

death is def. sensitive topic due to my dad.

i dedicate my nursing career to my dear daddy.

i promise him that i'll be a fine nurse soon.......

oh, sam forwarded me cute pink piggy pix.

i still couldn't respond to him. he always has agenda.

but it fulfilled me in a way thinking that i always had the control over him.

99 linkedin contacts

i finally have 99 contacts now!

i feel better by now.

12 days of intensity

had a massive subperitonial hemorrhage of my confidence, self-esteem and dream.

after 3 mos into the nursing program, guess the honeymoon is poofing.

i'm still happy and content with the idea that i love what i study and am in;

it's just that my fantasy and the oasis became the reality.

i hit hard with my personal weaklings on my first day at the nursing home.

after one full day of recovery with some nightmares,

i think i'm finally over.

i was inside of my own paranoid gulag for the last 48 hours.

now i'll turn this into something desolute and definite.

i'll sublime into someone stronger than me.

will overcome this hardship and become immune to.

as long as i learn something and move on, feel like that's enough.

:)